A tearing that will never be healed in quite the same way. It was a tearing that couldn’t be undone. Those coveted words “wife” were no longer mine. Suddenly a life that had been so neatly planned was upside down. Although 2 little girls clung to my knees in despair, I had never before felt as alone as I did that day. I watched in disbelief, tears streaming down my face as my husband of 9 years decided family life was not in his plans and walked out the door for good. 23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: 24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.It was April 17, 2010. 21 Do not I hate them, O LORD, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee? 22 I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies. 20 For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain. 19 Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.

17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! 18 If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee. 16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. 15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.

14 I will praise thee for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works and that my soul knoweth right well. 13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb. 12 Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. 11 If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me even the night shall be light about me. 9 If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea 10 Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. 7 Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? 8 If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me it is high, I cannot attain unto it. 5 Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me. 4 For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether. 3 Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. 2 Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. 1 O LORD, thou hast searched me, and known me.

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